some days, i wonder what
it’s like to not be the
odd girl dining alone
in a restaurant or coffee shop
scribbling notes.
i can feel that tinge
of loneliness in the
cold breeze and bright
city lights.the longing
for something you never had…
to hold hands with someone
while looking up at
the fireworks…
still on my wish list, waiting to be crossed out.
dear god,
thank you for once again showing me how amazing your wonders are. i am so stupid to ever doubt you. being home with my family, with the people i love the most is such a breath of fresh air. the simplicity and warmth of hugs and dining together and goofing around especially through all these chaotic drama….such simple sweet life pleasures.
thank you for this weekend. i never thought it would turn out like this and you surprised me once again. i am grateful.
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me
when i shut off, i shut off.
it would take a lot for me to reboot.
when the damage has been done, how are you supposed to respond to it?
i don’t remember a rule telling you to let someone off the hook just because he/she asked you to.
i never understood the hype. seriously, it’s just a word.
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i am tired of chasing, trying to fix things.
maybe i was wrong to convince myself i could do this.
maybe i’m not really cut out to take care of someone other than myself.
i can only try so much.
i am done.
today, i am done.
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it gets exhausting sometimes.
people. plans. people and their uncanny ability to suck the life out of you. plans that don’t go right.
i need to breathe.
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the thing is, you can’t expect people to not do you wrong no matter how much love you show them. there’s no such thing as training yourself to not get hurt, you still get hurt anyway. caring is part of being human and it does come with consequences and so i deal.
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feeling something even if it’s not good is better than not feeling anything at all.
