coming up for air

dear god,

thank you for once again showing me how amazing your wonders are.  i am so stupid to ever doubt you. being home with my family, with the people i love the most is such a breath of fresh air. the simplicity and warmth of hugs and dining together and goofing around especially through all these chaotic drama….such simple sweet life pleasures.

thank you for this weekend. i never thought it would turn out like this and you surprised me once again. i am grateful.

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me

what does it even mean?

when the damage has been done, how are you supposed to respond to it?

i don’t remember a rule telling you to let someone off the hook just because he/she asked you to. 

i never understood the hype. seriously, it’s just a word.

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breaking point

i am tired of chasing, trying to fix things.

maybe i was wrong to convince myself i could do this.

maybe i’m not really cut out to take care of someone other than myself.

i can only try so much.

i am done.

today, i am done.

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i’m a carefree girl

it gets exhausting sometimes.

people. plans. people and their uncanny ability to suck the life out of you. plans that don’t go right.

i need to breathe.

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no such thing as cushion

the thing  is, you can’t expect people to not do you wrong no matter how much love you show them. there’s no such thing as training yourself to not get hurt, you still get hurt anyway. caring is part of being human and it does come with consequences and so i deal.

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feeling something even if it’s not good is better than not feeling anything at all.

bubble wrap

on this messy drama about relatives:

i feel sorry that it has come to this, that a relationship i value has fallen apart, that a person i owe a huge part of my life to despises me – i feel sorry that she chose to deal with what i have told her the way she did. we cope the best way we know how, the only way we know how. i don’t feel sorry for what i said because i meant it.

so i brace myself because in the future i might get betrayed by these same people i am helping.  if in case this happens, i would look back to this and remind myself to not feel hatred or resentment. i did this not because i expected them to value me. i did it because if i were in that situation, i would want someone to fight for me. i would want someone to do everything in his/her power to make sure i get to at least try to make it in this life.  everyone deserves a chance.

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sometimes life puts something in your plate that would require you to think and act like a grown-up and you’d be surprised by how well you respond it.